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Why Do I Feel Like I Have to Earn Love?
At that point, I felt sick of giving and giving… So many so-called close people leaving… relationships fading all of a sudden without any strong reasons. The only thing I could identify was perhaps they felt like I wasn’t giving enough reasons to stay… but that wasn’t true. Probably, I was just tired of pouring…
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Why Does Faith Sometimes Feel Mechanical Even When You Still Believe?
Just finished my morning Japa and prayer. Sat back. And felt — nothing. Not peace, not distraction. Just nothing. The thought came quietly, almost casually: Why does this feel like I’m just doing it? It continued the next many days. Days turned to months. Nothing had stopped. I was still showing up — the Japa,…
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Why Do I Feel Relieved When Plans Get Cancelled?
“Can we reschedule?” — goodness gracious… The text hadn’t even fully loaded, and I was already relieved. I noticed the WhatsApp from the notification window, and even before I could finish reading, I felt my stomach loosen. And trust me, it was I who had planned that meeting. I actually wanted to go. Then came…
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Why Do I Feel Guilty for Resting?
Had a near blackout and almost collapsed in the bathroom that night. Sweating. Pale lips. Speech slurred. Somehow, my parents escorted me to the bed and fed me glucose. Blood pressure below 55-95….body refusing to cooperate and screaming it needs a pause. And yet the next afternoon, I was calculating how many hours I rested…
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