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Why Does Faith Sometimes Feel Mechanical Even When You Still Believe?
Just finished my morning Japa and prayer. Sat back. And felt — nothing. Not peace, not distraction. Just nothing. The thought came quietly, almost casually: Why does this feel like I’m just doing it? It continued the next many days. Days turned to months. Nothing had stopped. I was still showing up — the Japa,…
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Why Do I Feel Guilty for Resting?
Had a near blackout and almost collapsed in the bathroom that night. Sweating. Pale lips. Speech slurred. Somehow, my parents escorted me to the bed and fed me glucose. Blood pressure below 55-95….body refusing to cooperate and screaming it needs a pause. And yet the next afternoon, I was calculating how many hours I rested…
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Why Do I Feel Spiritually Empty When Nothing Is Wrong?
Nothing is wrong. This is why it makes it more confusing. Life looks almost perfect on the outside. Work is moving. You have a daily routine – you wake up pretty early, chant, pray, read, walk, journal maybe, ticking of tasks from the list like a pro. From the outside, everything seems stable. Maybe even…
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Why Does Helping Others Leave Me Feeling Empty?
I just hung up the phone that morning in disbelief as I said yes again. Was alone in a hotel room. Travelling. Had gone out to nearby place for a visit to a monastery. Wasn’t able to process my thoughts… like are people actually like this? Or am i being selfish? Judgemental? Less empathetic? Basically…
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